Irishgoddess’s Weblog

Why I like 43, soon to be 44:

1.  I am no longer in high school.  We went to the 15th birthday party of a friend of GMan’s yesterday.  About a dozen kids there…oh my god.  The hormones flying around the room were frightening.  They had so much energy, and were so out of control of their emotions.  They would try to flirt, and it was all awkward and gangly and pimply.  None of them seemed to notice it, really…but you know they all go home and feel self conscious in way or another, just like we all did.  It was funny to see the roles they play haven’t changed all that much – the cute girl who hangs out with the drama club, the geeky guy, the jock who is still hangs with the “other” crowd, the goth girl, the dyke who doesn’t realize it yet.

2.  I am no longer in my 20’s.   This weekend my favorite law school friend got dumped by a guy she liked, a lot.  He’s jealous if she does things with other guys, but not ready to say she is his girlfriend, blah blah blah blah.  It is so nice to be with people who know what they want and are not afraid of it.

3.  I am no longer in my 30’s.  I’m no longer chastising myself for things I “should” be doing but haven’t yet.   No more scares about my life taking a wrong turn.

The last 5 years of my life, 40 – 45, have been full of major changes.  But I’ve maneuvered my way through all of those c hanges without any lasting scars.  I feel satisfied with my life right NOW.  I am in the middle of working toward certain goals but it doesn’t matter to me if I actually achieve them or not.  They are all just icing on the really nice cake that is my life.